Lately, I have been learning a lot about myself. I am a lot more focused on myself than ever before. I have stopped giving my energy and attention to other people and I am focusing more on myself a lot.
So, I am slowly trying to change the way I think. Because, since I can remember, I have always been afraid. Afraid of everything. Literally everything. I still am. But I see some improvement. If I was a 100% scared of everything, now, I am like 50% scared. So, there is a huge improvement. And I see myself changing.
Over the past six months, I have seen drastic changes in myself, which is mainly because I graduated high school. And I made new friends. And I learnt to stay away from negative people. I often found myself in bad company because I was unsure of who I was. And you know how it is in high school. You want to be friends with the “cool kids”. Even if that resulted in you loosing your own identity. I was a very insecure person in high school and that part of me hasn’t completely vanished.
Right now I am at this point in my life where I believe that if you have to live life, you have to do on your terms. Trying to mingle, trying to get good friends and trying to be a good friend to others, and trying hard to be in “that” group, wasn’t helping. And right now I am in the “fuck them all, I am living my life on my own terms” And this attitude seems to be working for me. Because I am not trying. I am not trying hard to be anyone but myself. And I am not trying to fit-in in any group. And since I’m not trying anymore, I can be whatever I want. So, it’s also safe to assume that I was a wanna-be. I wasn’t myself.
So, that wanna-be girl, that insecure girl, that scared part of me, is on the verge of extinction. It’s soon going to be soon destroyed. It is not gone, and I’m completely aware of that. But I am completely focused on removing that part of my life. I am trying to be more positive, more self-aware, more self-introspective. And I am trying to be more happy than usual. And I am happy with my change. I am happy with what I am turning into.
We all have to make major changes in our life. And all the problems you are currently facing now, will shape you into a better human being. It is a twisted law of life. So, if you are not happy with who you are, try changing things in your life. It can be a small change or a big change. But change is the only thing that is constant. And change helps with our personal growth. Change is very important for human life. So, the only thing that has worked for me is changing, changing a few methods and some ideas, accepting change, accepting and being a little open-minded about other ideas. And last but not the least, we need patience. Patiently waiting for things to happen AFTER the change. You should not patiently wait for the change to take place. We should make the change and patiently wait for it to work for us. And if it doesn’t work, you change something else and check if THAT works for you. And do this until you’ve found the CHANGE THAT WORKED FOR YOU.
If you have been where I am or where I was, let me know what you’ve done or what you’re doing to be more positive and happy with who you are in the comment section below. Like and share this if you think it will help someone. Have a great day. Smile more. See you, next SUNDAY .x