Want to know what I crave for the most and how I let go of my fear? Read further 🙂
The one thing I have always wanted in my life is good company. And by company I don’t mean company with family. I mean company with friends.
Sadly, I have never been lucky with getting good friends. I don’t know why. It is always like the other person is jealous of me, or the other person doesn’t like me, or the other person’s parents don’t like me or the other person’s not allowed to go out or they found a better friend than me and start ignoring me.
And from my side it’s usually that I don’t like a person when they fake it or that they bring someone else in between our friendship or they aren’t ready to solve a problem even after me trying to rectify it.
I’m not saying I am perfect. But I try to give my all to that ‘particular’ friend. But I can’t keep giving. I need something in return. I need to know that you’ll walk the extra mile for me, as I would for you. If you aren’t willing to do that, I’d randomly start moving away.
This blog post was written by me, four months back. But this never was posted. Obviously. But I am posting this now as an incentive. I’m posting this now because I have taken an oath that I will step outside my comfort zone. And since you all already know that I was (trying to change it to ‘was’ hopefully) an introvert, this is going to be tough.
I am going to be open to any kind of friendship. And I will try to make the best of it. And have fun while doing it. And sometimes I’m going to let myself make impulsive decisions. If it goes wrong then I learn something from it and move on.
Because I am done being scared. Done being afraid of rejection. This fear is making me hold back and not have fun. This fear is keeping me from doing the ‘cool’ things in life. This fear is keeping me from making memories. I am going to stop doing this.
Do you relate to the ‘good company’ I crave for? What are you most afraid of? Are you making memories? Are you stepping out of your comfort zone? Are you alive? Are you doing the things you’re most afraid of doing?
If your answer is “no” for most of the questions asked above, it’s okay. You can start now.
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And lastly, laugh more. You are the best. You are worth it. See you, next Sunday .x